My best reflections always happen in the most inconvenient of situations. Right now, I have exactly fifteen minutes to write about my feelings and I have about four hours of feelings to express.
So, I condense. Life is throwing things at me right now that I never thought I'd have the strength with which to deal. And yet, look at me! I just made lunch, did a kickboxing video and have plans for a platonic date night tonight. It's almost funny how well I'm functioning. But this isn't a cause for arrongance or even high self esteem. Instead, I'm forcing myself to look at it as proof that my Lord, my God, my Savior, redeems even the gravest situations to show us how large, powerful and mighty His love and mercy are. He doesn't give me more strength than I need but he never gives me any less. I cry, I feel defeated, I whine and I despair but I have never not gotten up and gone on. And I never will be truly defeated unless I abandon my God, who shows me how much he cares. He formed me to be a friend, a cook, a writer, a musician, a daughter, a dancer, a thinker, and a thousand other things but He did not create me to be defeated. If that were His intention, He would have never died for me. Because if there was no hope for me, then I would be defeated. But there is hope. There is hope for me, you and all those who seem defeated, hopeless, abandoned...
And that's only 6 minutes of thought. Wow... the Lord also created me to be a good editor and time manager. Who knew?
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